For the first few seconds of waking up at 10:44am this morning, I thought I was fine. Then within seconds the truth of reality caught up to me and I remembered every reason for why I wish I hadn't woken up at all. I woke up to two text messages. One from Angie and the other from Dean. I felt soo crap.. because of some stupid stuff. Sigh, I started listening to "Heartbeats" by Jose Gonzalez, (yes the song that's on my page) on repeat for pure comfort. It made my eyes trickle, and my thoughts started fast forwarding back and forth. I hate being sad. Like really hate it... I needed a quick fix. All these ridiculous thoughts bombarded my head. So I decided to write a pretend letter to vent it all out of my system. Yes, like a letter that I wrote to someone that I may never send. I hope this person never finds this.. (not yet anyway). It worked. I felt better..
Then I found a song on iTunes that really hugged me.
"Over It" by Katherine McPhee.
I'm over your lies, and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me, when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night, and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone.
oh..
That's why (your eyes), I'm over it.
(your smile), I'm over it.
(realize) I'm over it, I'm over it,
I'm over wanting you, to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
I'm over your hands, and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down, and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..
That's why, (your words)
I'm over it
(so sure) I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
Don't call, don't come by,
ain't no use, don't ask me why,
you'll never change, there'll be no more crying in the rain.
Amen sister. I love this song :)
There's no use analysing, thinking about it day in day out, nothing is going to change.
Life has to go on. BTW TO THIS PERSON OF INTEREST. YOU SUCK AND I HATE AND LOVE YOU. GRRRR & MMM.. :S
i had a shit day too darling.
ReplyDeletebut life does have to go on.
<3 you C.
i love you L *hugs*
ReplyDeleteas funny as this may seem. that ladakah could be found in osmosis? have you tried? i got my ladakah dress there.
ReplyDelete:O i havent tried anddddd that is totallly random! hahah
ReplyDeletePOTENTIAL SCENARIO:
PERSON: omgg carolyn cool dress. whered you get it!!
CAROLYN: um, osmosis..
PERSON: um, say what.. isnt that like a surf shop..
CAROLYN: .. yes.... LOLOLOL!
HAHA. i know right?
ReplyDeleteIt's kinda weird but they actually have kinda cool clothes in there. Oh you can also try Glue and Globalize.
AND you def must tell me when you get the dress :D !!
I shall I definitely shall! hahaha
ReplyDeleteI knowwww I also really have a soft spot for the label "Aquabella" in Jetty Surf... when i told my friends this, they were just like.. errr what the fuck. that's so random...
They have some really pretty floral pieces! eheh :)
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